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13 September 2013

I don't have a title, but that's okay.

My name is Ashlee.  I’m a twenty-two year-old junior studying French and English at university in the United States.  My hobbies include writing, singing, reading, graphic design, and occasionally some drawing and photography.  I do not enjoy math, broccoli, or Star Wars.  My favorite music genres extend from metal (Megadeth, Evanescence, Halestorm, Metallica) to French pop (Bruno Pelletier, Jule Zenatti, Marie-Mai, Cassiopée) to classical pop (Josh Groban) to plain old classical (Ludovico Einaudi).  My favorite movies are Disney’s The Hunchback of Notre-Dame, Titanic, and The Avengers.  My favorite actors are Tom Hiddleston, Kate Winslet, Helena Bonham Carter, and Johnny Depp.  I’m not overly fond of Tom Cruise, Benedict Cumberbatch, or Kirsten Dunst.  My favorite books are Dracula, the Harry Potter series, The Lord of the Rings, and The Lovely Bones.  My least-favorite movie is Jurassic Park III.  Some of my random interests include the Titanic (as in the actual ship, not just the movie), dinosaurs, the French language, and grammar.  I love video games like The Legend of Zelda, The Sims, World of Warcraft, and almost anything from the Mario franchise.

My interests make up a big part of my personality because similar interests are often how I make friends.  But besides that, I like to think I’m pretty funny and have a good sense of humor.  I’ve been told I’m witty.  I can be sarcastic, although hopefully not to the point where I’m mean about it.  I care about others and want people to be happy.  Sometimes I put other people before myself even when I shouldn’t.  When I love something, I really love something.  I’m a passionate person, and I’m also dramatic.  I also procrastinate far too much and my biggest personal battle is probably laziness.  I was extremely bullied throughout middle- and high school and therefore I may have a harder exterior upon first glance.  I’ve been told that I can be intimidating at first even though I consider myself a snuggly, happy person who just wants love.

That’s the thing.  All I’ve ever wanted throughout my life is to be liked and accepted.  I may not look happy when you see me walking around campus, but that’s just because I’m not a naturally smiley person; my neutral face apparently makes me look like I’m upset or angry.  But I’m not.  I may not be outgoing enough to be able to approach you and say hi, but I want to.  If you come up to me, I would be overjoyed to talk to you.  We don’t have to have the same interests.  I want to be everyone’s friend, but it’s not always reciprocal.  I used to think college was beyond the petty high school ideal that you can only be friends with certain people, but maybe I was wrong.  But I’d still like to try.

The point of this?  Attention?  Maybe I just need assurance that I’m not a completely repulsive human being and that just because one group of people didn’t like me enough to want to get to know me, it doesn’t mean everyone is like that.  Maybe.